Define Pain

Blood hits
The floor as you draw the sharp,
Cool glass across your
Skin.
You feel about as
Broken as it. You
Feel as if the world has
Fallen
Away from you and all that is left is the
Cold of the glass,
The
Warmth of th  blood and the
Throbbing pain which is now running through your arm.
You feel as if you are slowly
Emptying out
Yourself. As
If the
Blood were pain leaving you.
Leaving
You to become nothing more than an
Empty
Shell
Because
You
Have
No
Happiness inside.
Because all you have ever had was pain and now if you
Can feel it
On the outside
And watch
The
Blood
Flow out through the wound YOU created then
All it leaves is emptyness
And emptyness or numbness
Or
Whatever it is called either way the pain has gone and leaves an emptyness behind which is
Neither
Better nor
Worse than
The pain you felt before you came to the
Resolution of
Cutting out the pain and
Watching it ooze from you
In
Bright
Red
Rivoletts
That
Cascade
Down
In
An
Intruiging
Beautiful
Sort
Of
Gruesome
Display
And you know
It was caused by
You and
You alone to lose the pain felt for years caused
By everyone else and nothing
Could
Have stopped you you know
Yet you now wish
There could have been
Because the pain is no longer pain and all that flows from you is blood and all it leaves is more pain
Behind for
You
To
Bear
And nothing good
Comes from this new pain and
You wish
It would now end but now that you have begun it means
You cannot stop and the pain
The glorious disgusting
Pain
Has
Swollowed you
And you cannot escape
And
Too late you realize
Causing pain does not heal pain
Does not ballance out
The internal
And external pain
And only brings more internal struggle
And adds external pain
You regrett and
Life
Should
Be
More
Than
Covering
Scars
Or trying to hide the pain you feel
From either side.